heart felt stuff

This whole happening in Realengo made me notice how fragile human being is. I can't handle watching this Fantastico's report. It's just too terrifying, it's unbelievable, I can't. Thinking about every single life taken because of... Because of what? What was happening to that man? I don't want to judge him, I bet Wellington was initially a nice person. Following a Rousseau like thought, I wish I knew what took him to do something like this. Writing that kind of letter and planning that massacre, it's not purely rational - he was extremely changed. Not the same effect of drugs, but the effect of such a pain I can't imagine. And I feel sorry about him. I feel sorry about those children, about their families, about everyone's life in that place. I feel sorry because he wasn't the only one who was suffering that way. I feel shame, impotency, even tough guilty. Why he had to do that? Earlier bullying in that school, frustrations, mother's death, fundamentalism...? It sounds incomprehensible, right? I wish I could save him before this deep state of unaware impassivity.

There are so many stuff we still have to change, and I feel really disappointed about this sensacionalistic midia, not caring about the psychological state of the survived ones. Watching the news these days made me want to do medicine so badly, I really want this, I really have to do this...